Infertility can feel like you are running a marathon without knowing how much further you have to run or even if there is a finish line ahead. – The Fertility Garden
This morning I thought I was facing a ‘baby comedown.’ A baby comedown is my term for when an someone facing infertility is exposed to babies too much. When you’ve had to smile til your cheeks hurt and you’ve said the word ‘cute’ more times than Jessica Simpson when she’s shopping. Yep, that’s a lot.
It usually happens after baby showers and christenings.
And in those moments of being strong, you absorb the high of your own strength and the love you emanate so naturally. Suddenly you think, ‘wow maybe I’m good after all.’
Then as you place your head on your pillow at night and breathe deeply, the strength vanishes. You come crashing down like a kamikaze plane.
I felt awful. I looked pretty yesterday morning, this morning even the makeup couldn’t hide how deflated I was feeling.
But then the strong side of me appeared.. through the letter box. I’d bought myself a fertility bracelet from Fertile Garden on Etsy only a week ago. Its purpose is to remind me that my time will come and to keep the faith. As I pulled the ribbon from the box, took the bracelet and secured it onto my wrist the strength slowly returned. ‘I am good’ I told myself and then I could hear the birds singing again.