Some of you might know that over the last few weeks I’ve been torn over whether I should slow down and give my body a chance to recuperate. That included giving up the rat race (the 9-5) so I could focus on fixing the nursery. When I say nursery, I don’t mean an actual room in a house for a child.. I mean my body. A room for a child in me.
Well, I did it. I handed in my notice at work and it left me feeling sad. My job (and small career) has been my rock. The one thing I felt was mine. Now I walk into uncertainty and I cling to hope. All I know is that I don’t want to waste the months ahead.
I’ve had many conversations with various friends over the last few days about what I should do. I asked my bestfriend whether she’d have given up work to bring her two year into the world for her and husband. Her reply was without a doubt. That almost was enough. Then just before I handed in my notice, I struggled because at work I feel in control and on form. Handing it in was letting go of the reins. I emailed another one of my bestfriend’s and her words put it all into perspective. Here’s what she said (which I think will help others who might find themselves facing my dillema):
It’ll still be a great org when you get back to it, or there will be other great orgs to join. This isn’t the end. Think of it as an unpaid sabbatical. It’s easy to get caught up when you’re there because you’re accountable for your daily tasks. The fact that you often find yourself checked out when not there is key. You’re doing the right thing,dear. Power through and keep the reason why you’re doing this in mind. It’ll help keep you focussed.
Do you want to be holding a baby in your hands this time next year, or do you want to be shufflingthrough marketing planning papers? 😛
As said bestie would say.. and in the words of Drake.. YOLO. You only live once.
This year, those are the words I choose to live by.
P.s I’ve totally broken the no posting after 8pm rule. Oops.