The sun appeared this morning and it brought renewed hope with it. It’s very much welcome after two weeks of rain.
My period is delayed, I have cramps and all the signs of PMT. I think it’s from a combination of being ill and not being able to continue on with the Bio Resonance. I haven’t bothered to test because after almost a year of charting my temperature I finally know better than to fool myself. In fact I’m banning myself from Googling any pregnancy related materials this year- my new year’s resolution (yeah.. I know.. we’ll see how long that lasts). I hope I start bleeding today, crazing thing to hope isn’t it? I need the release and the fresh start.
My new job is nice. I’m in over my head with the handover. I know that the role is simple but until I get settled and learn all the different systems, it’s going to be a pain. If infertility has taught me anything, it’s how to look after myself. That’s my priority for 2013, to work and succeed without burning out or harming my fertility further.
2011-2012 were internal chaos. I’m going to make 2013 a year of harmony.
My feed is now full of women who have made it ‘to the other side.’ I’m so pleased for you all and I hope you all have safe and healthy pregnancies. For those of us stepping into the New Year feeling at loss, I’ve come to realise the past is the past. We can’t reclaim it or change it. The more we cling to it, the more the thoughts hurt us. So here’s to the journey ahead, may the terrain be easier and kinder on us. And may 2013, truly be a happy one.