Ahh just another wall to climb over

I bled mid-cycle this month and I hoped that my cycle was just resetting. Two weeks later … and I’m spotting red. I also have that heavy feeling. The pain is dull.

Something isn’t right with my hormones. I wonder if it’s stress. It’s funny because my fairy godmothers (acupuncturist and Thea) think my body is on the right track. That it’s responding so much better to treatments. Yet here I am. Feeling worse off.  <-not allowed to be negative

It's like a crime scene in my pants

Borrowed from http://alittlepieceofyouandme.tumblr.com/ – Infertility meets Tumblr

In the spirit of #itwillhappen, I was kind to myself today and avoided blaming my body. I know I’m trying the best I can and I don’t have any control over what’s happening. But I do have control of my thoughts.

I can’t tell whether this counts as Day 1 of a new cycle – my chart shows a temp dip. I decided to book in the HyCoSy anyway. If I bleed again in 2 weeks, I’ll visit the Dr and hold off on the procedure. I’m just thankful that this isn’t worse and that I’m still functioning.

Tonight I’m going to curl up and rest… and maybe eat some chocolate eclairs to comfort me. Nom.

I opened Pandora's box and infertility entered my life.

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7 comments on “Ahh just another wall to climb over
  1. Kristin says:

    Sorry to hear about the unexpected spotting. Eclairs sound divine. And beating yourself up won’t help, might as well pamper yourself. #itwillhappen

  2. knalani says:

    I’m sorry you’re feeling bummed! Mmm eclairs…

  3. LisaB says:

    Ugh, so sorry! It is odd that you’re having that bleeding when everything seems to be going so well and getting on track! Maybe your body is going through an adjustment period – like readjusting to certain hormones and changes. Hopefully great things are on the way very soon!! xxxx
    Love that pic hehe 🙂

    • It’s a very confusing time. I sure hope great things are on the way too. As long as this doesn’t happen again in 2 weeks, I won’t panic. I hope you’re resting lots and enjoying nesting x

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