The Day 33 Curse

I started spotting on Friday and I knew it was game over. I just waited for the blood to arrive. I wrote “I’m at 16DPO with a temp dropping ever so slowly. After 16 decent temperatures, most women would test by now but I know my body too well. It’s trying to trick me again. A late period for me is exactly what it says on the can – a late period. It will arrive, just late. If it doesn’t come by Day 30 of my cycle, I know it’ll arrive by Day 33. It always does.

The waiting is painful because no matter how well I know my body and can predict the outcome, there is always still a glimmer of hope. Hope just makes it all so much worse.”

Fertility Friend prompted me to test after seeing 18 high temperatures. It was a strong BFN. Yet hope led me to googling all sorts. Like so many others I just wanted a miracle, I wanted to be one of those stories that end up with an unsuspected BFP.

But Day 33 arrived, a Monday no less and so did the blood.

Here’s to a fresh cycle – time to kick the Monday blues! Afterall.. it will happen… it just wasn’t meant to be this time.

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I opened Pandora's box and infertility entered my life.

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10 comments on “The Day 33 Curse
  1. elaaisa says:

    Sorry to hear this cycle didn’t work. Hope you gather up lots of energy for the next round. Good luck!

  2. Kristin says:

    Me too dear. I was a day late and had so much hope. But this morning it was undeniable. Chin up. I’ll try to do the same. #itwillhappen.

    • This whole keeping positive thing is not easy but it’s made me realise how much I need to move on. How much I don’t want to be wallowing in self-pity and darkness.

  3. LisaB says:

    😦 *hugs* Hoping & praying for you for this new cycle!!

  4. redbluebird says:

    I’m sorry this wasn’t THE cycle. It’s so maddening and heartbreaking to get the disappointment of a BFN every month. I’m always Googling things at the end of the TWW too, trying to hold onto some glimmer of hope. Good to hear you’re looking forward though. It will happen!!!

  5. marwil says:

    Sending hugs, so sorry you are going through this again. I have hope for you, that it will happen one day.

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