DON’T DIE ON ME! I’M SORRY I NEGLECTED YOU.
I want to write more but I’m in a perplexing state of indifference and I’m wondering if this is normal. At some point in the near future, I’ll be joining the IVF ladies. I don’t feel prepared but I’m not entirely sure what prepared is – what you have to do to be prepared. I just thought at this point I would be trying to control this more but instead I feel like I don’t have any control over it. I’m being positive about what it could bring but I don’t want to be naively positive. Maybe I’m scared of being crazily positive? Which is silly because I ought to take a spoonful of my own medicine and heed my own words ‘Whether you are positive or not during the cycle, the fall from when you get a BFN always hurts the same.’
Maybe it won’t hit me until I’m on the drugs and juggling work. Anyhow, just wanted to explain my silence. The problem with not being caught up in a storm is that the drama queen in me doesn’t have anything to write about.
I’m sorry if this hits your SEO. I’ll try to bring some drama in or maybe you’ll get a sprinkling of Disney happiness instead.