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IVF #2: Egg collection nerves, blessings and traffic

Dressed in Sweaty Betty yoga pants, a loose T and a pair of Converse I’m telling myself that I’m all zen and ready for egg collection. Deep down I’m nervous of facing a replay of the last time. I’m dreading

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Posted in Assisted Fertility, Dr Trips + Medical, Emotions + Coping, Infertility, IVF

The infertile and the fertile friend

The last couple of days I’ve been thinking about my pregnant friend and how I’m failing to cope with pregnancies around me. I’m too aware there’s a very good chance (like 70%) that this cycle I’ll be facing a negative

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Posted in Emotions + Coping, Infertility, IVF

Sunday morning update: So, I just found out my sister is pregnant.

I know I said I’d add some drama to this blog again but I didn’t anticipate it being so soon! Lol. I also didn’t anticipate it being about this. My sister’s a therapist so she did well at breaking the

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Posted in Emotions + Coping, IVF

Azam Ali’s ‘Eman (Faith)’- thank you.

(Note to BloggerKuwait – please read this post, I’m hoping you can help me translate the Arabic <3) “Never lose hope, my heart, miracles dwell in the invisible.” – Rumi On my way home from work today, I began thinking

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Posted in Emotions + Coping, Religion + Spiritual

5 HTP – Infertility & Depression

I took 5 HTP to kick the blues. The 50mg dose left me wired and unable to sleep. It also acted as an aphrodisiac (which made me giggle a lot). I don’t want to take this everyday. I just want

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Posted in Emotions + Coping, Uncategorized

Dead storks.

I’m sure we’ve all been there. The moment you resent this journey and all the sacrifices you’ve made, and decide ‘screw it, I’m not pregnant anyway… what does it matter if I smoke or enjoy coffee or eat gluten or

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Posted in Emotions + Coping

Recent BFP? Don’t feel guilty

Seeing those two pink lines must be the most amazing feeling ever but I can imagine that it’s equally as terrifying. When you’re going through infertility in the blogosphere, you tend to learn more about pregnancy and the risks more

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Posted in Emotions + Coping

Mourning the death of hope

This is my cat mourning the death of hope with me. She’s loyal and supports my cause. We’re sitting together and reflecting on another failed cycle.

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There came a point where there was just too much infertility noise in my head. I needed an escape from myself, so I picked up ‘A Feast for Crows’ and lost myself in a different world. Escape. I escaped my

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Emotional bomb.

“My ovaries are not appreciating your stupidity.” – Fertility Doll Yesterday really tested my ‘It Will Happen’ willpower. I’m overly sensitive to pressure at the moment. Something happened at work that made me travel inward and put up all walls.

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Posted in Emotions + Coping, Infertility, Work Life Balance

Oh, what a power is motherhood, possessing
A potent spell. All women alike
Fight fiercely for a child.

~ Euripides, Iphigenia in Aulis, c. 405 B.C.

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