I’m sorry I haven’t replied to comments on the last couple of posts or responded on Twitter. I haven’t been functioning like a normal human being. I’ve avoided talking about this BFP because I always thought I’d stop blogging with…
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IVF #2: Beta Hell. Update.
Tagged with: ectopic, infertility, life, low beta, miscarriage, muslimah, pregnancy, sadness
Posted in Infertility, IVF
Posted in Infertility, IVF
IVF #2: Faint rainbow
I’ve been a bit quiet about the results today because last night I saw a glimmer of hope with a faint positive and a definite digital positive. However, my fears were confirmed. The faintness wasn’t because I’ve been drinking loads…
IVF #2: two week wait, baby showers + no symptoms
I love you guys for rooting for me. I’ve been struggling to transform that energy into my own and the truth is that I can’t function. The only thing I can do is obsessively Google symptoms and hide my face…
Tagged with: 2ww, baby shower, fertility, ICSI, infertility, IVF, two week wait
Posted in Infertility, IVF
Posted in Infertility, IVF
IVF #2: Post transfer – unicorn visited, still waiting on the rainbow to appear, Indian aunts banished!
I’ve been feeling on edge the last couple of nights. I think something’s wrong with the moon. Thought I’d write an update to help me process this and shake off the nerves. The Blind Date almost made me faint –…
Tagged with: early blastocyst, embryo, ICSI, indian aunty, IVF, morula, post transfer
Posted in Infertility, IVF
Posted in Infertility, IVF
IVF #2: Pre-transfer nerves
So tomorrow marks a big day – transfer. I’m planning my outfit because I want to go there feeling my best – not looking like death like the last time. I’m also envisioning how zen I’m going to be while…
Tagged with: Anxiety, ICSI, infertility, IVF, IVF transfer
Posted in Assisted Fertility, Infertility, IVF
Posted in Assisted Fertility, Infertility, IVF
IVF #2: Post egg collection update – 6 eggs, puking and trying to think glass half full
Thank you soo much for all the well wishes this morning. I couldn’t reply but it felt so good reading them after. Apparently I woke from sedation saying ‘eggs’ again. I think it’s because I fell asleep staring at the…
Tagged with: egg collection, ICSI, IVF
Posted in Assisted Fertility, Dr Trips + Medical, Infertility, IVF
Posted in Assisted Fertility, Dr Trips + Medical, Infertility, IVF
IVF #2: Egg collection nerves, blessings and traffic
Dressed in Sweaty Betty yoga pants, a loose T and a pair of Converse I’m telling myself that I’m all zen and ready for egg collection. Deep down I’m nervous of facing a replay of the last time. I’m dreading…
Tagged with: assisted fertility, fertility, ICSI, infertility, IVF
Posted in Assisted Fertility, Dr Trips + Medical, Emotions + Coping, Infertility, IVF
Posted in Assisted Fertility, Dr Trips + Medical, Emotions + Coping, Infertility, IVF
The infertile and the fertile friend
The last couple of days I’ve been thinking about my pregnant friend and how I’m failing to cope with pregnancies around me. I’m too aware there’s a very good chance (like 70%) that this cycle I’ll be facing a negative…
Tagged with: ICSI, infertility, IVF, my friend is pregnant, pregnant friend
Posted in Emotions + Coping, Infertility, IVF
Posted in Emotions + Coping, Infertility, IVF
IVF – the torture of waiting
How did you feel waiting between IVF cycles? Since November I’ve been spinning in space, I can’t find happiness in anything and I’ve even failed at #100happydays. I have an interesting life filled with opportunities – what is wrong with…
Tagged with: fertility, infertility, IVF, tcm, traditional chinese medicine
Posted in Infertility, IVF
Posted in Infertility, IVF
Forgive me
Since I bled before my OTD and my IVF failed, I’ve been stuck in orbit in a strange space of internal sadness. On the outside I’m smiling and juggling life. I’ve worn a mask – faced the sadness alone while…
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