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Sperm donor seeks you | A fertility gift

A Fertility Gift By: Tess Murphy One Man’s Story on why he decided to become a sperm donor Since I’ve been blogging I’ve watched women seek egg donors but I’ve never witnessed a sperm donor seeking a female or a

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IVF #2: Faint rainbow

I’ve been a bit quiet about the results today because last night I saw a glimmer of hope with a faint positive and a definite digital positive. However, my fears were confirmed. The faintness wasn’t because I’ve been drinking loads

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IVF #2: two week wait, baby showers + no symptoms

I love you guys for rooting for me. I’ve been struggling to transform that energy into my own and the truth is that I can’t function. The only thing I can do is obsessively Google symptoms and hide my face

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IVF #2: Egg collection nerves, blessings and traffic

Dressed in Sweaty Betty yoga pants, a loose T and a pair of Converse I’m telling myself that I’m all zen and ready for egg collection. Deep down I’m nervous of facing a replay of the last time. I’m dreading

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IVF – the torture of waiting

How did you feel waiting between IVF cycles? Since November I’ve been spinning in space, I can’t find happiness in anything and I’ve even failed at #100happydays. I have an interesting life filled with opportunities – what is wrong with

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Dear 2014, Be good to me.

Inconceivable hit the nail on the head when she wrote ‘For the first time, I’m actually afraid of what the next year might bring.’ Recently I’ve been hit so badly by anxiety that I’ve forgotten how to celebrate life. I

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Spring forth [pics]

Take a moment to look at the pictures below. They are of a huge old well in Turkey. The well is now dried up BUT it has trees growing in it. I found myself saying to Super Man: “If life

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Oh hai der!

Barren Betty inspired a picture post. These days I fail to find words to write on this blog. In many ways I’m at the point of resenting that I’m still writing about infertility! But I need to get over it

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5 HTP – Infertility & Depression

I took 5 HTP to kick the blues. The 50mg dose left me wired and unable to sleep. It also acted as an aphrodisiac (which made me giggle a lot). I don’t want to take this everyday. I just want

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Dead storks.

I’m sure we’ve all been there. The moment you resent this journey and all the sacrifices you’ve made, and decide ‘screw it, I’m not pregnant anyway… what does it matter if I smoke or enjoy coffee or eat gluten or

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Oh, what a power is motherhood, possessing
A potent spell. All women alike
Fight fiercely for a child.

~ Euripides, Iphigenia in Aulis, c. 405 B.C.

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