HyCoSy, husband & gratitude

What was it like when you started your infertility medical investigations and journey? I feel like I’ve just graduated to the big girls club and that this shit just got real (as if it wasn’t real enough before).

The HyCoSy 

Apparently I was very…erm.. tight and I did incredibly well at dealing with the pain.  The Dr said ‘This is your womb’ and I replied ‘Hello womb.’ As I stared at the empty space, I felt really sad inside but refused to show it. She then said ‘Oh look, your egg is on its way down. Half way.’ And there it was, a big black space that was in fact an egg. I felt so proud and in awe. Women get excited at seeing their babies and yet I was so so sooo proud of that one egg. The Dr told me that it was a good sign – that I was managing the PCOS.

Mr Husband & I drinking tea after the scan

Legs up. Mr Husband & I drinking tea after the scan.

I have to say the Dr was amazing. We (Mr Husband & I) both felt a strange connection with her and she said we should get in touch with her if want her to help more. Maybe it’s because she was from the same home country as me – it just seemed like she read beyond my smiley easy going mask and saw real pain. She saw the young Muslim girl who hasn’t been able to give her husband a child.

She was so caring, reassuring and straight forward. Her advice was blunt: It’s time for assisted help and this may be a case of unexplained fertility. We all believe that I am ovulating, even the folks at Duo Fertility think so.

My fallopian tubes are fine –  she did pause when looking at the second one because she couldn’t see the dye. At that point I was about to have a panic attack but then I was blessed with a ‘Oh here it is.’ All looks normal.

I felt strangely emotional afterwards when I sat there sipping on my tea. I was so grateful that my husband was there, that the results were good but most of all that I had two amazing medical professionals helping me through it all. For the first time in a long time, I felt as if God was with me.

I could see a rainbow in the rain.


I opened Pandora's box and infertility entered my life.

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7 comments on “HyCoSy, husband & gratitude
  1. needbabydee says:

    That’s amazing sweety! Here’s wishing you all the best! I’m glad that you found a good caring doctor with whom you can interact with. 🙂 much love 🙂

  2. marwil says:

    Yes, I remember this feeling, like getting a member card or something. I’m so glad that you connected with the Dr. That is so important to feel comforatable. And yes, it is emotional to ask for help and then be validated and cared for. Sending hugs.

  3. Β. 'Ατακτη says:

    It’s been a while since I left a comment on your blog. Also working on my fertility and remind my body every day that I trust it, inconditionally. here’s a link I stumbled upon and thought it might interest you. Many blessings for your journey.

    • It’s nice to hear from you again. I didn’t realise you have a blog, I just started following it.

      I do that too 😀 I tell my body that we’re doing the best that we can. Have you heard of tapping? http://eft.mercola.com/ It’s similar – but you tap at the same time.

      • Β. 'Ατακτη says:

        Thank you for the reply. Yes, I do have a blog (in Greek) and another one in English. Feel free to read my posts.
        Yes, I’ve had some fantastic tapping sessions for other issues but realised I can tap for whatever I need to. My tapping teacher is English, based in Ireland. If you want to know more about my tapping experience, send a private message at: daskalakivera@gmail.com
        Have a wonderful day, a new start each time, I say.

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