Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. ~ Albert Einstein
First of all, you guys are super sweet for checking in when I was MIA. I’m sorry I didn’t reply to comments, I was trying to hide from my infertility. So, five months later and it’s almost time for cycle 2 (next week hopefully). Do you ever begrudge having to go through a medicated cycle and not miraculously being one of the lucky ones to fall pregnant between the cycles? That’s what I’m currently doing.
This cycle I’ve tried to do things a little differently with nutrition and supplements because last cycle I felt so out of control with it all. I was pushing on to meet the 70g of protein a day, downing wheatgrass and hemp even when it made me feel yuck and juggling supplements I knew little about.
I’ve also made an effort with exercise by starting tango and reformer pilates (the latter is amazing!!) I do feel like my body temperature is somewhat warmer these days – even Super Man commented on it. Usually I’m cold all of the time! Small improvements.
- Trying short protocol and new lovely consultant. Tick.
- New supplement and nutrition plan. Tick.
- Head in a good space. Sort-of-tick.
- Try not to kill my bosses in the process of juggling. In-progress.
- Being a bit more zen. Sort-of-tick.
- Exercise. Tick.
- Tango. Tick.
- Blog from the start. Tick.
- Pray. In progress.
I’m really hoping this cycle has better results than the last. I naively went into IVF #1 thinking ‘Woah I could be pregnant at the end of this!’ This cycle I’m treating it as one big experiment. I need to know whether it’s just a fertilisation issue with sperm or whether it’s my egg quality. I’m half expecting a new ugly revelation to hit me upside the head.
I’ve been debating whether I should blog about this. Bizarrely by sharing it with everyone I feel more under pressure to report back, which is why I internalised the struggle the last time and kept quiet. Well, not this time. I should keep true to this blog and contribute to the IF community. So brace yourselves for a hormone fuelled me. Lucky you.
I’m just asking you all for one thing: don’t ask me when OTD is and when I’ll be peeing on a stick. The last time I didn’t even make it to OTD. Hell I barely created an embryo. This time I want to pretend OTD doesn’t exist. (You can do the math and work it out if you really want to know.)
With the cycle being so close my mind is buzzing. I’m not sure I’ll ever go into a cycle feeling 100% ready but this time I know I’ve done the best I can.
I have two questions:
1. Does anyone know more about switching from long to short protocol and how it might impact egg quality?
2. Has anyone had thin lining? What have you used to boost it?